About me

I always find it a bit weird writing my dreaded weight down, especially in a public location!
Still, there is no real point having a weight loss blog without giving people some insight into you.
So here goes...

Age: 24
Weight: 87kg
Dress Size: 18
Height: 5ft 1
Target Weight: 55kg (32kgs off!)


I'm back home after University and have been doing a basic office job while looking to get into something properly. My lovely boyfriend and me are planning to move in next year if things if all goes well.

At the moment I am hoping that by summer next year I will have reached my target weight. I get conflicting messages from people about that being too short a time or too long (!). Still, I am happy with this and I am excited to see some progress!

Like most overweight people, my vice is food. I love it. I also have come to realise that I have an emotional relationship with it. If I am upset, I turn to ice cream to talk about it... I have good days and bad days. Really bad days. I want to try and address this problem and not go over the edge on those days.

I feel like I have been dieting since I was 12. In that time I did lose nearly 20kg taking me from 75 - 55 in two months. It took me two years to gain it back, but it wasn't that surprising. I am sure that sounds like amazing weight loss, but it came at a cost. I did it by practically starving myself and I changed nothing about my eating habits when I came off the diet.

Next month: I am off travelling for a month. I am taking the bf and he will be meeting family. They haven't seen me in 2 years. I have clearly gotten pretty big in that time and I am so nervous about letting them see me this way! The next month is to pretty much focused on getting down a few pounds and toning as much as possible (sadly no drastic 10kgs off).

I hope that this attempt is successful and that it sticks. I am determined not to be held back by my fat anymore!

Short and Proud? Stout and Down.

So! As I sit here and am trying to think of what I should write in this first entry and I am struggling.

Probably because this isn't my first weight loss blog. 

I am your typical failed dieter, gain a bit lose a bit, try a diet - last a month, try another diet - last a week! It all hasn't been going too well really. I have probably tried everything and I find that nothing works for me. 

Gym everyday, Meal Replacements, Weight Watchers - I have tried everything,,,, 

So it has been depressing to watch the dress size go up and the pounds increase.Weight gain has been at it's worst when I was university, the culmination of irregular meals, unhealthy meals, drinking and laziness has left me a hideous 20kgs heavier!

I finished my MA in August of last year and I have begun to realise how upset I am about how I look. The lack of self esteem that has gone along with this has left me even more scared about meeting new people and applying for jobs. I always have the feeling that you do get judged on how you look in interviews. So feeling fat isn't exactly helping!

This blog will be honest. I mean honest. The reason I stopped my last one was because I felt like I was lying about things so that my readers didn't know how bad a bad diet day could really be!! I don't know if anyone will read this one to be honest, but I hope that if anybody does, it can give them some support, motivation. Not everyone loses weight easily!